Road to consecration

Friday, April 17, 2015
An amazing thing happened last night; Boo laid next to me in bed while I was reading 33 Days to Morning Glory and asked if she could do the retreat with me.

Mind. Blown.
She is 12...well, this month she will be 12.

It was at that moment that I realized what a wonderful life God has given me recently. I have three amazing daughters and the son I wanted so badly. All four of my children are relatively healthy, not counting the Epilepsy issue. They are all very intelligent children, and very well adjusted. I am lucky enough to be able to work from home while I attend school, all while I homeschool Boo and Bear. From the depths of my heart, I am grateful. I love my life as it is now, and I have God to thank for that.

I recently decided to read 33 Days to Morning Glory as a way to get myself closer to Mary. I love my Holy Mother, and I want to be a mother like she was. A mother who can put the needs of God before her own selfish desires {I am terrible at that}. I want to be a mother who teaches her children to love God above all else. I want to be a mother God can be proud of.

Honestly, I wasn't expecting much, and I have had some troubles with the retreat and have had to force myself to look at consecrating myself to Mary as a new adventure. There are basic ideas I naturally do not like in here, and it took a lot of prayer to see that I was looking at this retreat all wrong. My prayers have been made stronger by this, and I now fear asking God or anyone for help a lot less thanks to this book.

I have dedicated these next few weeks to giving more to God and more respect to Mary than I have in the past. I will offer more prayers to Mary for her to choose how they are disbursed and who will benefit from them. How have you rededicated yourself to God lately?

Personal Accountability

Wednesday, April 15, 2015
Personal accountability..

Sometimes I wonder if I have any at all, then I remember I have four children. Of course I have personal accountability, how could I not? I started this month with my date book all set for the month as usual. At the front of the month, in bold letters was "NO EXCUSES."

Ok. Sure. Not. I am half way through this month with nothing to show for it; I am ok with that. I am a mother first. So far this month, my household has has had some bumps. Homeschool is killing me, but it is worth the suffering. Bear loves doesn't totally hate it. She already jumped to the next grade level in math! I am thrilled for her. Boo injured herself a few times in sports. She is a rock star though and she just gets right back up.

The sweet, sweet, baby boy...the past year has drained me. I finally came up for air with a diagnosis of Epilepsy for him. He is happy, and healthy, and I thank God daily for that.

The only child who hasn't made me totally insane is the toddler, my little one. Nani is just so funny and so sweet. A small ball of love.

So lately, I have nothing to show for my time. Not in work, school, or socially, but my family...I have been told they love each other. Strangers can see the faith and love in my children. What more could I ever care about? Strangers can see the pure love in my children. Friends can see the love of God...I was floored by this news. How could I, after all I have been through, raise children who love God so much? Easy, with His help. I don't need to be personally accountable, I need to be accountable to God.

New year, new life

Sunday, August 17, 2014
I got my final signed divorce papers the other day. I didn't cry, I wasn't sad, I wasn't even angry. I just was. It was like looking at any other piece of meaningless paper. I think I feel that way because it seems to me that the whole thing was over long ago. I felt unloved for years...but that is fine. It wasn't my problem, it was his. As a result, I have an amazing new life:

Monday is the beginning of the new school year. We will be exploring education from home. Boo is in 6th grade now, and Bear is in 4th. As I looked through the myriad of books and curriculum I realized this is going to be our biggest adventure yet. I will need these darling girls to put aside their differences and work together to keep this home running. The curriculum choices I decided on are:

  • Apologia Science (Zoology...Land Animals) ~ I intend to get zoo passes to make the most of this
  • Mystery of History ~ I am starting at the beginning. One book a year...
*The girls are close enough in age that I can use the same book for each child
  • Grammar 4 & 6 by Saxon
  • Wordly Wise 4 & 6 for vocabulary
  • Aleks for Math
  • We will choose a language and use Rosetta Stone for that as well
I am very excited about this, and the girls are as well. I get to work from home, I get to be with the kids, and maybe, just maybe, we can get control of Bear's anxiety issues. 

I will post home school updates as we go, but this will not become a home school idea blog. Once my new contributor gets her page up and running, I will post it and you can venture there for all your home school needs.